Ummmm . . . hi, everybody! It’s Hefnuts again!
Hope you had a good Halloween/Samhain/All Saints’ Day/Day of the Dead! If you celebrate it, hope you had a good Diwali! My wife and I have been doing well, and in fact, our 5-year anniversary is coming up!
If you couldn’t tell from the God-only-knows-how-long it’s been since I’ve written, I gave up on making posts for a while. I just didn’t feel like there was anything worth writing about, nothing anyone would want to read. Also, there was the chance that what I really have to say would end up being controversial, not to mention I feel as if my cerebral cortex is atrophied and I’m hardly capable of independent thought these days. I decided to take it up again (hopefully for good this time) because I simply feel like it would be a good use of my time. A lot of what I say may not be fully informed, but I keep feeling my industry vs. inferiority conflict nagging at me, this Springsteen-esque urge to . . . I don’t know . . . do something. I don’t think I’m comfortable enough to write about controversial topics or get into verbally violent altercations with people who disagree with me just yet, but I feel like I want to type something.
Since I don’t quite have anything to type just yet, I may as well clue you in as to what brought this on. Well, as I mentioned above, I feel unindustrious. I do work full-time, I have a loving and supportive wife to whom I do my best to convey my own love and support, yet I feel like I don’t contribute enough to society at large. Like most writers (and no, I don’t consider myself a writer), I guess I’m just doing this to boost my self-esteem, or ego if you want the more pejorative term. Anyway, the story of what had brought me back is typical: I had applied for a promotion at work, someone else got the promotion, you know the drill. Don’t get me wrong; the person who got the promotion will be great for the job so I don’t disagree with the decision, but I can’t lie — it has left me feeling pretty empty. I do feel like I have nothing to offer. If anyone says I shouldn’t feel that way (I get that a lot), then keep in mind I’m not telling you how to feel so CAN IT! Hahahaha!
Wait, guys, it was a joke! Don’t leave!!!
Oh, well. To all 2 of you who are still reading, my wife has been encouraging me throughout this time to start the blog again, and I just always found something else to do. I wanted to stay out of the thick of all this conflict going on in society — Twitter’s become a veritable cesspool these days. Ooh, there it is — my first controversial opinion! I feel electrified already. To continue, I discussed my recent shortcoming with a friend, saying that I felt like I should be doing more but didn’t know what to do since I’m 35 and a college dropout (and before you say it, I agree that that shouldn’t be a reason anyone seeks a promotion — hindsight is 20/20). She suggested, among other things, that I start a WordPress. I said, “Um, yeah, about that . . . ” and directed her here. She started following the blog and also encouraged me to start it back up. When I expressed my concerns at the possible conflict, she told me, in summary, that being true to yourself requires bravery, but self-knowledge and being true to yourself is its own reward. That was several days ago, and here I am.
Annnnnnnd here it is! I just thought of something to write about!
I had made a post about civility much earlier in this little blog. I’ve been worried for the state of civil discourse in America, and the world at large, for a while now. With that having been said, I’ve been paying attention to current events in the world, and, as bad as things may be in America, I thought I’d put some things in perspective compared to the rest of the world:
- There is civil war — not just unrest, actual war — in the following countries: Yemen, Syria, Libya, Somalia (since 1991), South Sudan (itself a young country), Mali, perhaps more. War is a day-to-day reality in these countries; it is very close to home for these people. My point is, no matter what anyone posts on Facebook or Twitter, we don’t have a civil war (well, at least not yet).
- The clashes in Hong Kong between the Chinese government and anti-mainline protestors have ramped up considerably. Read about those, and see if that sounds like the U.S. yet.
- I love talking about religion, perhaps too much. Therefore, it makes sense for me to mention anti-religious discrimination and religious conflict. Anti-Muslim sentiment has been horrible since 9/11 and continues to grow, also branching out to Sikhs and other groups who are mistaken for Muslims (oh, and happy Nanak’s birthday to all the Sikhs out there!). However, as bad as that is, keep in mind the various conflicts against Rohingya in Myanmar, the anti-Muslim sentiment following the Easter Sunday bombing in Sri Lanka (to those unfamiliar, think of it as their 9/11), and the conflicts between Uighurs and the Chinese government. The Rohingya in particular are still a stateless people.
- the Israeli-Palestinian conflict. ‘Nuff said. Especially with the recent airstrike on Gaza Strip being fresh in the news, along with the fact that there have been three wars since 2008 between Israel and Palestine.
What am I trying to say here? I know there’s a lot I’m missing in the above list, along with the fact that there is U.S. involvement in most of these items, but my point is: take heart. It’s not this bad yet. Don’t get me wrong — we need to stay vigilant and take care of each other. Those of us who are fair-minded need to keep a spirit of cooperation and civil discourse alive. However, as far as I know, those things aren’t a reality in this country, nor are they a reality in many countries still. Count your blessings, and do what you can to help those affected if you have the time and means to do so. I also realize I’m running the risk of sounding insensitive to the conflicts; that’s certainly not my intention. I only want to put things in perspective regarding my previous post on civility, to bring it full circle.
In any case, I hope to keep writing. I’m thinking about changing the blog title; it does sound a little pretentious, if I’m honest. Maybe I’ll write about something entirely different next time, something more personal. I haven’t decided yet, but I hope to have it up this weekend! Until then, I should return the favor to the friend who encouraged me to start writing again; she has a blog site herself, obviously. Her site is Share Bear Crochet; she’s very creative and has a lot of insight on crocheting. Feel free to pay her blog a visit!
Thanks for reading (whoever the hell you are)! See you again soon!